Monday, October 18, 2010
I'm tired of being sad, and embarrassed, and stressed. I want to be happy now, no matter who's watching.
Eventually, I want to find someone here to lay under the stars with me and just talk about the world, like we used to when you were here, before you left. We used to talk about anything and everything- nothing was a secret. Except what we would say really would be secrets, just sometimes we'd whisper them, and other times we'd scream them out for all to hear. It didn't matter, either way; the only things around to hear us were each other, and the stars. Just the memories we had make me smile, and our memories were the sweetest things. But when you say you're sad, it's hard to go on with a happy mindset, knowing that you aren't happier
there, and it feels like you left for no reason. But just remember, I hope for you every day, that you're feeling better. Even if I have to make my life just a little bit harder to go out of my way to make you happy, I'll do it.
I'm eager for the future. I'm eager to do things to help the community, to start my life, to find out my test scores from my big test. But no, I'm too busy living in now.
Just be hopeful, that's all I can say.