Thursday, September 23, 2010
Putting Off Procrastination For Later
Ohh man, this song. I have this strong vision, where I'm singing this song in the courtyard of my grandma's town. "Christmas" lights are tangled in the trees surrounding the small area, mingling with the fireflies, and it'd just be a group of kids, fists in the air. The crowd carries the energy through the autumn air, and the noise makes the older shopkeepers closing up down the street grumble and think their bitter thoughts about the youth of today. Me, I'd be in the middle of a flock of strangers, screaming my heart out like it would be last time I would ever be heard. For some reason, I find no fear in it at all.
Secret: When I walk through the halls of school, I can't breathe. I just forget how to breathe as I pass people, as they glance over at me. I feel like a deer in the headlights, navigating the hallways without a pack. It's frightening, but, at the same time, enlightening. It's the memories I still cling to that keep me on that lone path, and it makes me feel different. Alone. Myself.
I have a weird love of eyes, I've never known why. I've always picked out one guy to have the most beautiful eyes, but he has a contender now [even though all he will ever be is a face in the hallway, I'm sure]. It makes me extremely happy, to know that there's always better out there somewhere. :]
Ugh, I don't remember what else I wanted to blog about today. I'm supposed to do a whole project tonight for Fahrenheit 451 [I'm setting up a whole big list of quotes I want to share eventually, but it just grows longer just about every day], yet here I am, typing away.
Lately things have been stressing me out to oblivion, yet I'm just kind of pushing them off so I can panic more later.