I do not really understand what is going on with me right now. Something is shifting in my heart, and all I feel I can do is hold faith in it. What I understand so far is that I did not want to go to that party tonight where that cute frat boy and drunken people would be, all of which probably wouldn't have cared if I made a fool of myself or not. No, all I wanted was to spend my night sitting in the student activities center and listening to that boy with no companions play the piano like an angel. The music seemed clear in what all feels like living in a shadow.
I will let you guys know what happens.