I do not really understand what is going on with me right now. Something is shifting in my heart, and all I feel I can do is hold faith in it. What I understand so far is that I did not want to go to that party tonight where that cute frat boy and drunken people would be, all of which probably wouldn't have cared if I made a fool of myself or not. No, all I wanted was to spend my night sitting in the student activities center and listening to that boy with no companions play the piano like an angel. The music seemed clear in what all feels like living in a shadow.

I will let you guys know what happens.

reminisce

I am listening to a song that one of my very good friends from a few years ago recorded. The first time I heard this song, I was sitting in an audience of 350 teenagers who had no damn idea what was going on in their lives. We were all at a crossroads with ourselves, and I very much was (and, sometimes, I think I always will be). When she started playing, the entire room went completely silent, and I remember everything in my body stopping in shock. Her music reminds me of a breath of fresh air in the wilderness- I hope it makes you feel the same way. I pray its clarity totally fills you, and I hope it helps you know that every person is at a crossroads.

It is called Mother Mary, and is performed by Jeri Katherine Howell for her new album Collage. It is on Spotify, and iTunes, so please listen to it.

ne me quittez pas

I am so enamored with my life. I have spent the last few days relishing in the sunny moments that God has paved on my road of life. My feet lately have seen many adventures, and, even better, my heart is filled with an adventurous and peaceful spirit that has not and cannot be discouraged, broken, or completely stopped.

I am turning nineteen soon. That is a weird thing, but if life just continues in the easy kind of fashion it has the last few days, I will be entirely content with that.