We all make promises to our hearts, equally as we do to other people. We give ourselves a song, a person, a fleeting feeling. Hope hikes the mountains in the winter, just as we do, but also knows and lives in the cozy valleys below.
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I cannot imagine the world not being lit up. Even if there were not lights, there would be fires. And if there were somehow no fires, then there would still remain the stirring and passion that lies in peoples' hearts. Sure, not everyone has that fire in themselves, but some would light the way, and, like fire, this kind of light catches on and truly shines across the world.
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I am not sure what position my heart is in currently. I do trust God with whatever he has planned for my life. I am just not sure what it looks like here to me (and that truthfully scares me very deeply). I was convinced I was so in love with a boy, and suddenly it just does not seem to work like what it did in the last few months. We seem to be going in different directions. But I have also let people poison my heart and mind lately.
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I have found another boy like the boy that reminded me of autumn from many years ago. Something about him also makes him blue, though, like the gentle waves of the ocean hitting the thin sand. My best friend is summer (for obvious reasons), but I still love him the same. And my best friend from back home is spring, and it so refreshing to be with her. My boyfriend... I do not know what he is. Lately, he has been winter, and that scares me to no end also.
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All my thoughts have been melting with anxiety once the week starts up, and then these thoughts die throughout days. It is a vicious cycle. But I like where and when I end up at the top, so all seems okay for now.
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Until next time,
Mack
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