I found it out. It all makes sense. It is a dripping understanding of your heart and its struggles and your thoughts with their gray clouds that rain on my parades quite so often.
It came down to one of those secrets that you cannot even begin to tell anyone else about- a whisper on a night you were not exactly ready for. It was one of those hidden secrets that shatter glass opinions sitting on glass tables that you once knew were stable, but now know better. Sure, everything is clearer now- now I can see why you act the way you do. But when you truly get to know someone, that is where the deepest of things crawl out of the darkness and into the warmness of the fire of your relationship, for better or for worse.